Comments on: What does depression feel like?

By: Stacey

Stacey — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 17:20:32 +0000

Great info!!! It’s very important for people to realize some new behaviors may need a closer look

By: evie, 15

evie, 15 — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 12:32:03 +0000

i feel like this depression will never go away, it feels like every single day i have to pretend to be okay, even when i laugh with friends its their niggling in the back of my mind, i always think, i dont deserve to even be happy, i have a reacurring thought to people “why are you being so nice to me” some days i spend in bed it feels like theres just nothing going on nothing seems fun anymore. i only feel excited when someone mentions a “drinkup” (alcohol) or get high, i suppose it allowed me to feel out of myself away from it all other times i guess it makes the stuff in my head worse then it all comes out and i cry so much, but i get tired of crying and ive spilled the story out to so many different people so so so many times its like you feel you dont even have the stregnth anymore to even bring the subject up, at the start counselling sessions helped, they can make you better afterwards but sometimes it feels like you just cant talk and for me after a while you just get tired of it all you feel exhausted from thinking of it all and right now i just typed alot of things that i dont even want to read over because it seems pretty silly. huh yeah did i mention depression makes you feel not there you dont feel real and all of a sudden everything that once meant something to you has dissapeared and all i can say now all the time is just “i dont care” because i actually dont care. but a little bit left of me a tiny bit says i do but nothings worth it

By: Rachel

Rachel — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 04:35:13 +0000

Hey. I been in a deep depression and currently on prozac for about a year now. This list is exactly how I feel and I think anybody who is depressed can also relate. Since I’m only 16 some people view adolescent depression as a ” phase ” but it effects everyone in various ways. It really is a disease of the mind and sometimes I wish it would just go away but it feels as if depression is now my personality. I think depression should be taken more seriously. Thanks for putting up this list.

By: emily

emily — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 02:07:18 +0000

you would feel very restless/can’t sleep/can’t even remember if u went to bed/won’t eat/may lose weight/cry alot/have alot of anger/won’t shower/hopeless/helpless/feel no one cares about u/nothing matters/may want to hurt yourself and others/don’t care to change clothes
and after this is over may have guilt

By: V

Sat, 31 Dec 2011 16:43:57 +0000

ALE: The feeling of not knowing how or why things are happening sounds like anxiety. I get it too. The attacks are so strange. Out of nowhere things I have taken for granted like seeing, hearing, or walking are all of a sudden frightening and confusing. It’s almost as if I’ve crossed into territory I shouldn’t be in. Like I’ve gotten to close to figuring out why I’ve been put here and I’m being punished for being so close. It makes everything I see too contrasted, and almost unbearable to look at. My hands don’t seem like my own. It makes me question if anything is real at all. It throws me into a sense that I’m dreaming. I have learned to control my attacks to some extent by repeating in my mind, “It will pass. Nothing has changed. You’ve been here before. You’ll be okay.” It seems to put an end to them more quickly and gives me a small feeling of accomplishment.

By: D

Sat, 31 Dec 2011 01:31:21 +0000

Another year has gone by and I am still in my sorry state. I’m very lucky to be working, but I never can say I feel good or look forward to anything. I’m not living, I’m just existing. The only thing that temporarily feels good is masturbating. My head is so screwed up that I wanted to try and masturbate with a married female friend and it almost cost me a friendship. It’s an endless cycle I can’t escape from….

By: Laurie Morris

Laurie Morris — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 00:11:20 +0000

I have suffered from depression all my life. With 30 years of counseling and medication, I have at least finally become able to function 90% of the time. My family has little or no contact…I know my successful son is ashamed of me. He married into a mentally, physically and financially fit family and has “moved on.”
Depression is as deadly and ominous a disease as any cancer, yet it carries an awful stigma of shame for its victims.
It is unrelenting, unbearable sadness….that is simply there.

By: ashley

ashley — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 06:59:00 +0000

I’m so sad I have 3 little. Kids I feel blind they deserve so much better

By: Ris

Ris — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 03:27:47 +0000

It feels like sinking. Trying to swim, but you can’t seem to kick hard enough or move your arms right. Like when you’re trying to wave for help, and you keep dipping under the surface every time you try to yell and swallow a mouthful of water instead.

It feels like never being warm no matter how many blankets and sweaters you wear.

It’s wanting to touch someone – hold hands, hug, sit close – just to remind yourself that there are other people in the world, but not remembering how.

It’s taking two steps and feeling exhausted.

It’s reading the same sentence over for five minutes without absorbing a word of it.

It’s forgetting if you already washed your hair in the shower — three times.

It’s pulling the blanket over your head so you don’t have to see what time it is by the sun.

By: Lucy

Lucy — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 02:18:43 +0000

one thing i have to add is that depression never seems to give you any breaks, you may only realize it after you start taking medicine but you do really feel numb. My family was odd, my dad was an addict in denial and pretending to be a churchy holy man, shaming us kids for everything we could never be, trying to make it look like our family was perfect in everyone else’s eyes, my mom was depressed. The only way i was able to feel anything was when i started taking medicine, in fact before I did i had to beg my parents to let me take it! (around this time it was about 2 years after my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer)around then I started to figure that something was wrong and i was tired of it.

a few months after treatment I began to feel better, so much in fact that I actually started making friends!

point is that i hate to say it but all of those negative feelings and thoughts, its all in your head, you are worth so much more than that. you WILL gain control over this and if you are scared of medicine, request the lowest dose (witch is almost nothing but just enough)depression is you’re body is low on serotonin. this can be due to genetics or things in the past like past drug use etc. Just know that no matter how much you might think people will be better off without you, it is NOT TRUE! I have known this kid since he was little, his name was cory. he was the sweetest kid ever but when he got into highschool he came out as gay. this kid only hung out with about 3 people and his family problems were things he mostly kept to himself. he thought no one cared about him. it makes me want to cry knowing that he diddnt think know how many people cared about him. he was so depressed from the constant bullying at school. but his funeral was packed. I wish he knew how many people cared before he did it.

My point is that you dont know how many people care about you. just because they dont talk to you all the time dosnt meen they wont cry and hurt for a long time after your gone. and being in this siduation (he died 3yrs ago) I still think and feel sad about him all the time. he was special, YOU ARE SPECIAL AND LOVED!

you will get through this, its ok to get help, just dont go please?