04-01-2008 22:06

Confused

I just got into the college of my dreams and I know I should be happy about it, and I suppose on some level I am, but I don't get the amount of joy out of it that I wish I would. I've been suffering with depression for about six years now. My family refuses to acknowledge that there is a problem with my mental state. They're afraid of being labeled the family with the crazy daughter, but when I lay in bed crying myself to sleep night after night I wonder if maybe I should do them a favor and end it, I'm sure someone at the school I got into got waitlisted. I feel like it would be a service to the greater community if I killed myself. I really don't know what to do anymore, all I can do is lie in bed and "feel sorry for myself" as my parents say. I feel worthless and quite frankly, no one has given me a reason to believe otherwise.

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