03-17-2008 14:54

Not sure what to do anymore

my depression started 5 years ago when i was 17 probably as a result of alot of some terrible traumatic experiences at the time. 5 months ago my already bleak outlook on things suddenely changed one day and things have taken a turn for the worst. i havent gone a day without crying since then, im failing in school. and hence cant have any proper relationships, and feel terribly alone. ive lost intrest in everything and have no desire for a future and definitly cant forsee one for me. ive already reached the point of wanting to end things, and i can definitley say that i very well would have by now except for the fact that i have a young brother who isnt even old enough for high school yet. and he(me as well) has already had to endure the loss of his mother 5 years ago. i cant put him through another loss. theres a point in your life where you are fed up and ready and willing to end everything but im even worse off than that. I never thought it was possible to experience emotion this strong.

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