12-21-2007 02:07

Being a star employee then crash and bur

I've struggled with depression for many years. I've taken just about every medication for it at one time or another. These medications can be a circus in their own way at times. Imagine feeling happy, motivated, confident, CONTENT. Then imagine all those feelings to a lesser or greater degress GONE. poof. Sometimes for me its gradual. Other times its somewhat rapid. I've been tested for bipolar as at one time i hoped thats what i suffered from because then their was an answer. Depression is too general for me to be comfortable with it. I need to know WHY, what's causing it? Certainly there are chemistry interactions at play but i've tried to unlock every memory, worked with therapists, then finally after years of trying to 'figure it out' i realized that was my problem. So I have my good days. Tonight im having a bad night. But even as I sit here and type this I know that by habit I say 'it gets better'. Tomorrow, maybe. The sun will always come up. Don't forget the holidays are not a good time for people suffering from this. 
 
IT GETS BETTER.

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