10-31-2007 12:38

a lonely nightmare

I think depression is the worst any human can suffer. I've been battling depression for 5 years. I used to be a happy and friendly person. Now, life just seems like a struggle. At first, my depression just came out of nowhere. I started feeling very moody and it didn't feel normal. Then I started feeling normal again but it didn't last. I started feeling mad all the time without any good reason. I withdrew from friends and my downward spiral from enjoying life began. For a whole year I was relieved from depression by praying everyday that God deliver me from this horrible mental condition. Then the following year the depression came back and it feels worse than ever before. I get agitated easily, extreme anxiety attacks, cry almost every night and feel terribly alone. Sometimes I feel like I can't even make it through the day. When you're under depression, especially if it's severe you don't feel like doing anything anymore, nothing motivates you and you feel joyless. Dark thoughts also cloud your mind because there's not true happiness inside. I'm going through it now and it doesn't feel good at all...never ending misery

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