04-19-2008 15:55

ive been dating my boyfriend for about nine and half months. i used to be so excited to see him, i was always in a good mood. i started birth control about two and half months ago, and that made me a little crazy. if my boyfriend didn't call when he said he would, i would cry and panic that he didn't love me anymore. and then two days ago, i suddenly didnt feel any connection to him anymore. i don't really feel any emotion at all when i'm around him, but i desperately want to have that love back. i feel strange, like nothing is the same anymore, and it hurts so bad because i don't feel good when we're together, but i also can't imagine life apart. and what is confusing me is that it happened so quickly. literally one day i was obsessing, thinking how much i was in love with him, and then the next -bam- no emotion at all. is this normal? do i feel disconnected from him because i am depressed? i definitely feel depressed..i feel a huge weight on my chest, i can't look at the world the way i used to. i don't want to lose my boyfriend, hes the best thing that ever happened to me. thats why im so panicked right now..im scared that i don't love him, but i WANT to love him the way i used to, i just want to feel normal again.

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